One of the things that I did before the New Year was start de-cluttering my room. While I thought I somehow succeeded, reading The Happiness Project made me realize that my attempt was quite laughable. I knew I didn’t do a good job. To make myself get more organized, I started maintaining a written to-do list again rather than relying on my gadgets. This way, I could track my progress and also provide myself some satisfaction by crossing-out whatever I had already done. Sounds fun.
In the light of all the 9/11 tributes for its 10th year anniversary, I feel so grateful when I think of how lucky I am to be sitting here, typing on my Macbook Pro, enjoying a quiet evening in Canada. Not that I was anywhere near New York when the attack happened. In fact, I was half-the-globe-away from NYC at the time. But the risk in living in a “Third World” country, which was battling its own terrorism issues, pretty much qualified me to be as lucky as the survivors of 9/11.
My life is far from perfect. But, in all modesty, I knew that many people out there would give anything in the world to trade places with me right now. Canada is a beautiful country, full of opportunities and great people. There’s a lot to be thankful for, even if it’s simple:
- I never get hungry – considering the famine that currently engulfs South Africa.
- I have a bit of money stored in the bank for emergency purposes.
- I live in a comfortable house.
- We have a family car that I can borrow once in a while.
- I have a job that pays (and something else that will pay).
Maybe I do not have millions of dollars to spend on anything I want. But I have enough to buy what I really want. I have enough to make me follow my dreams and turn it into a reality.
In the past, I used to have a “goals” list in place of a New Year’s Resolution list. Listed were the things I wanted to achieve in a year. For the past 3 years, I had been trying to write one and follow it. But I never really got to make myself a manageable list. I said “manageable” because as I started to accomplish almost everything in my previous list, my goals just became even more ambitious (it was addicting to accomplish one goal after another!). Eventually though I started deviating from the list as some were impossible to achieve. I started ignoring it and just went with the flow, picking out a few favourites andseeing if I would be able to do it. It was like being a robot being steered by an invisible hand everyday with no clear direction.
At the start of this year, I endeavoured myself to create another list and make it realistic and promised myself to stick to it. Yet as they say, old habits never die. I felt like an old transmitter slipping in and out of focus. There were days when I had everything going really well. There were days when I just did not know what I should do and I doubt if I should do it. But all things considered, 2011 was a good year. Nothing extravagant yet but getting there.
2011 is far from over. But there are still a lot of things to be done and 3 or so months aren’t enough. So today, I sat down and thought of what I really wanted to still do this year. I narrowed it down to only 4 goals (2 of which are optional marked with *). I think this list is only fair given that we’re almost at the 4th quarter of the year:
- Launch FundBubble
- Go to NYC again and watch How To Succeed in Business Without Really Trying (oh, how ironic: *grins*)
- Visit Disneyland World or the Harry Potter Theme Park in Florida*(Made a deal with a friend that I would be going before my 25th bday – so no rush)
- Finally get a car (I don’t really need it but with FundBubble, it will be useful especially during winter)
Taking a new perspective, it has given me strength to pull myself away from that painful struggle with myself and finally see what I really want. It will take hard work. But that’s what I miss: the action. Right now, I know, I’m ready to be a leader again.